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Even though things are out of my control I can choose how I will handle the stress by my choices to deal with it! 3 AM, I'm wide awake and don't want to be. I went to bed early because I was exhausted from shopping lol. Spending money is draining because everything costs so darn much anymore and I find myself overthinking while I justify or price compare the things I am buying. Some guilt for buying myself "Perfect Pushups". I have not rewarded myself for a few months now and want them so I may build some upper body strength. I'm choosing to take care of myself so the fight of life is not such a huge struggle and to prevent myself from ending belly up (Sugar Comma or other addiction). I am living with Joy in this world.
Showing symptoms of the mess in my head manifest themselves in the loss of control for my R.D.I., Appears things are getting out of control for me and I can see it in the overage of calories and the sugar items I ate yesterday. I just remembered a couple of other things I had yesterday morning that put my total RDI up to 2008 calories.
My time management, housekeeping, sleeping pattern, etc. are going out of focus and slightly haywire at a ridiculously fast pace. I went out of control because it is a symptom of what is going on in my head. Eating after 7PM is not especially good for sleeping especially when I consume fruit which is digesting very noticeably right now. (deep breath).. I am sorting things out in my mind so not to sabotauge all my good effort and progress I have made. Choosing the way I feel about myself and the issues in my life is in my control.
When things are out of my control I have the energy to choose how I will handle the stress, how I will feel, how I will deal with it. It is up to me. I am doing what is required to feel good about myself because I am worth the effort. TOWANDA!!
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1550 kcal
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Fat: 38.15g | Prot: 58.77g | Carbs: 259.51g.
Breakfast: plum, Activia, sour dough bread, peanut butter. Lunch: plum, garden burger, refried beans, mexican rice. Dinner: spaghetti. Snacks/Other: watermelon. more...
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2929 kcal
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Exercise:
Running - 10/mph - 1 hour, Resting - 15 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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Sometimes the things that happen in our lives can be so overwhelming!! Worry can wreak havoc with our lfestyle and the way we react is to turn to what we have used as comfort before. I have been there. It is a testament to your self love and growth, that you are realizing that and trying to change your reaction to stress, by journaling about it. I hope that things change for the better soon! TOWANDA!!
16 Aug 10 by member: ctlss
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Very insightful comment. Journaling, recording, observing both on a personal level and collectively, etc. In this case, it's all the same thing.
16 Aug 10 by member: information
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Starting right off by saying...thanks for being my buddy!! At first I thought "perfect push ups" might be...ahem...another body accessory...You had me there!! ;) I'm sorry to hear that things are so haywire right now. That really sucks. I'm glad you
are journalling, too. It helps to persevere when we keep expressing our frustration and anger. Keep peeling back the layers, Lisa. You are dealing with deep-seated emotions which at the same time may be tied to whatever role food has played in our lives for comfort, relief, pleasure, etc. Keep doing what you're doing!! I like how you are so compassionate with yourself as you work through these feelings. Hang in there. Keep taking deep breaths!!
16 Aug 10 by member: Bible Bliss
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Thanks for the support everyone as it is truly appreciated, TOWANDA!
16 Aug 10 by member: Lisa Online
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