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The Rolling Stones: You can't always get what you want.. but if you try sometimes, you just might find, you get what you need.
So true, especially this morning.
As the morning pill for Mdog morphed into a 'curled up on the bed tickle-fest' (yes, she was tickling me back) I found myself casting around for yet another excuse to skip my treadmill today. After all, I'd already missed four days that began with falling off of it Friday, being busy (and weary) from the trade show over the weekend and then just being in a general funk yesterday.
But then MH broke up our fun with a 'Can I get some hot coffee in here?' request. I got up and refilled his cup - squelching the urge to pour it in his lap. We'd been having one of those mindless marital 'grumbles' requiring much restraint to not swat him, repeatedly, in the forehead with his remote control. But I'm sure he was able to fully interpret my 'evil glare' that I felt he was being an unreasonable jerk. Ahh, married life.
As he began ranting about the latest story on 'Fox & Friends' I decided 'Ya know.. I think I WILL go treadmill'.
It's been two months since I started treadmilling but the promised addiction has yet to kick in. It's a decent 'habit' like filing my tax return or doing the laundry but it doesn't bring me that 'endorphin rushing gee I'm so glad I'm sweating can't wait to go do it again' thrill I continue to read of on other's journals. But then, again, it's only been two months.
Because of that I refrain from too many days of talking myself out of doing it. When I hear myself making lame excuses I remind myself of the motivational cliche: If you want to badly enough, you'll find a way. If not, you'll find an excuse.
So in effort to escape MH's endlessly aggravating newsrant review I fled to my 'private gym'. As I pulled on my socks and tied my Nikes I thought 'you know... you could just veg out in here with Mdog and pretend....'
But what would be the good in that?
So I climbed on the treadmill and started my MP3. When Mick began singing, I found my smile. I started at a slow pace and stretched. Eventually my back stopped aching and by the end of the 20 minutes, I was jogging and then running.
So while I may never GET the addictive happy sweaty rush from exercise that I WANT, I will continue to do it regularly because I so NEED that brief daily interlude of private solace.
That alone is worth showing up for, right?
Y'all have yourselves a good day now.
Bella
View Diet Calendar, 19 February 2013:
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Fat: 68.44g | Prot: 114.05g | Carbs: 142.85g.
Breakfast: Quaker Old Fashioned Oatmeal, Flax Seed, Schwans Blueberry, Coffee, Fage . Lunch: Sweet Potato, Prime Rib. Dinner: Spinach, Sartori, Egg, Ham. Snacks/Other: Reeses Miniature, Cherry Peppers, Dark Chocolate Almond Spread , Smart Balance Peanut Butter, Schwan Triple Berry, Simply Kraft Cottage Cheese. more...
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So as long as your hubby is grumpy you will be working out :).
19 Feb 13 by member: fatoldlady
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LOL, Lady ... nah... I often dash off there in the evening too just to get away from Family Guy & the Simpsons. Again, I need the Solace more than the Sweat right now.
19 Feb 13 by member: FullaBella
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Bella, what a fantastic journal. So encouraging...so many days I just want what I want and forget that I do get what I need. thanks
19 Feb 13 by member: sharonfriz
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Thank you Sharon. Yep, I've often said my biggest obstacle is myself when I just won't get out of my own way long enough to let things that are supposed to happen actually evolve. Glad you liked it.
19 Feb 13 by member: FullaBella
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One of my favorite sayings is "It never gets easier, you just get better." When I got into the regular exercise habit I, like you, was waiting for this magical "click" to go off in my brain wherein I would all of a sudden love exercise and want to do it all it the time. I am not sure when it actually happened because there was no "click", just a slow shift away from "I hate this" to "this sucks a little less than last time" to "this isn't so bad" that started somewhere around the five or six month mark for me. The "I like it" and "this feels good" part didn't come till sometime later. I really think it has to do with when you start gaining strength and endurance enough that every muscle doesn't groan the whole way and you aren't huffing and puffing till you're red in the face. Exercise now still has it's moments of discomfort, but only when I am intentionally pushing myself to induce that magical strain that build muscle and increases endurance. So my advice is, hang in there long enough and you will feel better and better about it, during it and afterward.
19 Feb 13 by member: evelyn64
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Thanks Evelyn - that's exactly why I tell myself 'you've only been doing it two months after a lifetime of avoiding it... if it still doesn't kick in by the time the ratio is 50/50 you can quit...' LOL .. of course, that would make me 102 years old when I give it up...
19 Feb 13 by member: FullaBella
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Good for you, my angel! I'm sorry you're not feeling it yet about the treadmill, but you are such an inspiration that you continue anyway. And, I'm still holding out hope that it will come, or that when you are ready, you'll try over types of exercise that you do love! Xoxox
19 Feb 13 by member: Ruhu
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"Ahh, married life"........
19 Feb 13 by member: 2toofat
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I didn't think I would ever look forward to doing dishes after meals...that was until I met "remote guy" and his requests from his living room throne....so easy to say, "sorry honey, my hands are in dishwater...." Thanks for sharing the Rolling Stones quote...don't you just love them???? Mick has more energy than anyone I know who is 70....he is contagious and such a motivation to keep my old bones moving.
19 Feb 13 by member: 2227Gwen
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You are simply inspirational!
20 Feb 13 by member: riocaz
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One of my favorite journals to read.... :-)
20 Feb 13 by member: Djburney
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Love the quote, love the journal, too. Next time my partner has to watch some inane drivel on TV, I'm going to need to ride the bike in the garage with my Ipod on!
20 Feb 13 by member: crabby Kat
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@Angel - thank you hon - I did inherit a free 'gazelle' but boy does that require coordination - obviously it's a good thing I'm not on real skis in snow and ice. Most of the time I just use it to work my upper body by 'pulling and pushing' with my arms as I'm getting the lower body with the treadmill. But as @Sandi and @Gwen and @KitKat share - until then, I'll just remember the peace and quiet of being in there, even with Mick's occassional garbled lyrics, still trumps the insanity of the world outside my little room. @Rio - thank you. I'm trying to keep it all simple and if it's inspirational, good! @DB - thank you too - I have really been enjoying yours too lately. I like the work you're doing. Thanks again everyone. Bella
21 Feb 13 by member: FullaBella
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