FullaBella's Journal, 15 Dec 12

December 15, 2012 - Small and Subtle but Celebratory Changes Noted since 12/6/12:
*Lost 5 more pounds bringing total weight loss to 60lbs since August 25, 2012.
*Can lift & cross legs without assisting them.
*Woke early (on purpose) to work out in the fitness room at a resort instead of sleeping late followed by a huge brunch with Bloody Mary's as the appetizer.
*Survived the All you Can Eat Buffet twice in one weekend without destroying my RDI
*Developed within myself a phrase I now call 'Visual Fulfillment' (see Journal 12/10/12 if interested)
*Broke another spoke on my wheel of insanity (see Journal 12/11/12 if interested)
*Can now feel the bones in the back of my hands when I run my fingertips over them
*Was able to slide into a smaller size of jeans
*Someone 16 years younger and at least 80 pounds lighter walking with me pleaded for me to 'slow down'.
*Survived a hateful self image attack and grew stronger
*Having to prop myself up more in my desk chair; hydraulic lift wore out long ago and I must now have less padding in MY seat.
*Finally connected that a craving indicates a desire to 'taste', not consume an entire 'serving'.

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December 6, 2012 - Small and Subtle but Celebratory Changes Noted since 11/24/12:
*Lost 5 more pounds bringing weight loss to 55lbs since August 25, 2012
*I can now wear a regular bath towel instead of a bath sheet
*Medications for diabetes and cholesterol will not be required as I was able to bring those back within an acceptable limit by eating healthy
*Had a Doctor tell me she was impressed ~ with my history of obesity that is indeed a rare thing to hear and experience
*Six people commented suddenly within this week 'Wow, you've lost weight' although most of the credit this week was due to new underwear.
*I was able to work five hours getting my storeroom ready for a workout room this past week. Four months ago I was too heavy, exhausted and uncomfortable to even stand there for more than a few minutes much less do the bending and heavy lifting.
*I've continued to meet more friends at FS and be inspired more than ever with their experiences, encouragement and support.
*I actually ate pasta and didn't have a guilt laden urge to purge
*I managed to survive a couple of 'emotional' anger moments without binging - I did open the fridge door and stared at the shelves but caught myself, slammed the door shut and walked away.
*An uncontrollable craving morphed into MayoBinge but didn't purge and got back on track with healthy eating the very next day
*I actually researched a treadmill online with really serious intentions to buy
*I made reservations for a weekend away and actually cared whether the hotel had a workout room rather than stocked minibar and midnight room service.
*I stood in a line at a store and was comfortable without the need to lean over on the cart and constantly alternate my feet as I had to in the past
*I dropped a pen while driving and once I pulled over to a safe stop I was able to bend down and pick the pen up off the floorboard instead of having to step out of the car to bend over to get it
*Twice I tried to get out of the car without unhooking the seatbelt (okay, that just reads idiotic regardless of weight but in the past it choked me so badly it was the first thing unbuckled before I even turned off the engine ~ now it's obviously loose enough to be an afterthought.)

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November 24, 2012 - Small and Subtle but Celebratory Changes Noted Since Starting 8/25/ 2012:
*Lost nearly 50lbs
*Dropped 4 sizes in jeans and wearing pants with a zipper & a number rather than 3X
*Can stand over an hour now without pain
*Have more energy and confidence
*Have NOT STARVED or USED pills to suppress appetite
*Only one binge / purge incident and that was the first week
*Choose to walk more and park farther from stores when safe
*Can reach body parts easier as well as not feeling strangled by seatbelt
*Haven't suffered acid reflux at night once
*Am proud of myself
*Joined fat secret and met a lot of nice people and made some good friends
*Have enjoyed finding new and healthy and delicious foods to eat so I feel confident I CAN do this the rest of my life
*Have lowered my fasting blood sugar from 160 to 110 without medication
*Am not fearing lab work check up due next week
*Am looking forward to doc visit due next week as her reaction to my plan to lower blood sugar and cholesterol with diet instead of drugs was a look of skepticism (sp?)
*Have started taking stairs instead of elevator (up but not down yet - bad knee - maybe another 20lbs and I'll add the 'down ')
*Have started treating myself with more care and respect
*Have found a nice balance between 'live to eat 'vs 'eat to live'
*Am looking forward to today, tomorrow and next 90 days.

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1698 kcal

Fat: 79.29g | Prot: 57.76g | Carbs: 207.70g.   Breakfast: Schwans Mixed Berries, Plain non fat yogurt, Coconut Oil, Quaker Old Fashioned Oatmeal, Flax Seed, Creamer, Coffee. Lunch: Fat Free Balsamic Vinaigrette Dressing, Cucumber, Mushrooms, Fresh Express 3-Color Deli Coleslaw, Tomato, Spinach. Dinner: Puff Pastry, Olives, Bread Italian, Gouda Cheese, Pizza with Meat and Fruit. Snacks/Other: Fig Newton's, Stacys Bagel, String Cheese Weight Watchers, Wholly Guacamole, Almonds, Plain Yogurt, Granny Smith Apple. more...

2315 kcal

Exercise: Sleeping - 24 hours. more...