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The past, the present and the future. Thanks to the yo-yo weight issue I actually HAD clothes from size "2" to "28" and even 5X. Yeah, after a certain point, there aren't numbers large enough, I just wore letters.
Of course, womens clothes in single digits are plentiful and stylish and I when I lost weight last time I practically lived at Ross and Marshalls buying designer clothes at Walmart prices.
And I kept the fat the clothes. Like a reminder. Or a safety net. Because I HAD lost 100+ lbs before and I'd thrown away all of my fat clothes so as the weight came back on I had to buy new.
You'd think that would have been inspiration enough to get control of my eating that time but it wasn't. Even sadder was, when I lost the weight in my 40's and started gaining it back, I was too ashamed to pull those clothes out of the closet that I was sooo thrilled to wear 'on the way down' that I bought new clothes for 'on the way back up'.
Well, this time, it's all gone. I probably have capris and two pair of slacks and 4-5 blouses. I filled about 15 lawn size bags of clothes and shipped them out to be used elsewhere.
I hold an image of me 'thin' in my mind because I've been there and know I can do it. What I 'can't' hold in my mind is the wardrobe. I just KNEW above all else, I would NOT want to wear the same things in my 50's that I wore in my 30's & 40's.
I would LOVE to win or be nominated for that 'What not to Wear' show and have someone dress me (rather than a salesperson just kissing my butt and telling me it looks good.)
In my mind, 50 sounds sooooo old that I keep imagining old lady clothes and I don't want that.
I guess if forced to pull out a cliche, I'm thinking Jackie O. Sleek and stylish, nothing too 'look at me' but if someone does look the first thought 'hopefully' won't be 'wow, look at that fat woman' like they do now (and I know they do) but at the same time I don't want them to look at me and think 'who is she trying to kid in that outfit.'
Just like having to learn to eat properly didn't come from home, it's been an online, book, friends, group experience of what works and what doesn't work.. I need help learning to dress too.
Duh, I can dress. I just mean I don't want to walk in a store and buy clothes off the mannequin. I want to get to s stage when I am at my goal weight, maintain it for at least ONE year, and then develop a nice stylish flattering wardrobe.
So that's why ALL the clothes, thin and fat, had to go. This time, I'm doing the diet right. No quick fixes. No short cuts. So the GAL at the end of this journey will need new clothes to go with her new life.
View Diet Calendar, 25 October 2012:
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1381 kcal
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Fat: 37.29g | Prot: 97.50g | Carbs: 202.91g.
Breakfast: flax, coffee, lite fat free yoplait, quaker oatmeal. Lunch: spinach, Turnips & Tomatoes, chicken. Dinner: salad, Cucumber (with Peel), kosher pickle spear, broth, grape tomato, salad dressing, brussel, chicken. Snacks/Other: fiber one , balance yogurt honey bar, Nonfat Strawberry Greek Yogur. more...
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3048 kcal
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Exercise:
Sitting - 6 hours, Resting - 10 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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