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Today has been a good day - thought I'd add the JE before it hits the fan :-) I've changed my breakfast this week from 2 servings of oatmeal (I mean ... geez... how can 1/2 cup be considered enough food?!? so up until now I've been eating 2 servings) but this week I went back to the 1/2 cup and putting it with lite yogurt. It's a nice change and I'm pleased I don't need artificial sweetner in the oatmeal. However, I began noticing I was feeling less energy and more hunger mid morning ~ so I guess the oatmeal sticks to the ribs better. BUT I decided THIS morning if it continued, I would have a snack between breakfast and lunch ~ I'm hoping to continue moving my meals around like this until I eat six times a day rather than 3 larger meals as I understand it 'should' help my metabolism pick up a bit.
So I was running an errand that required a long solitary drive and used that as my 'talk' session. I pretend I'm talking to a therapist and they are nodding and asking 'so how do you feel about that'. And no, I'm not trying to insult real therapists by any means, I just use the stereotypical image of one but save the fee. So I talk talk talk throughout the entire drive and try to solve some of my eating puzzles.
As I was leaving my errand to return home, mid morning, I was feeling that 'fatigue & hunger' so I stopped in a sundries shop and picked up a large water plus a protein bar and a banana.
I would have preferred an apple - an apple gives me something to bite and chew. Banana's just dont provide that same activity for me. But I did make myself bite, water, wait... bite, water, wait... and let my brain catch up with the fact that I had given my body FOOD and might not need that extra calories from protein bar just yet.
Well, at first, it wasn't. The other reason I prefer apples to bananas is bananas are sooo sweet... I just want more more more.
So I looked at the clock on the dashboard and said 'you have to resume your 'conversation' from where you left off and IF you still feel hungry in twenty minutes, you can eat the protein bar.
Well, I started talking out the 'why do you want it now... are you hungry?' and then even changed the topic and before I knew it ... an hour had passed and I no longer wanted the bar.
Oh sure, I'm sure I'd "Like" it right now and am considering it as I compose this journal entry because it is, after all, time for my afternoon SNACK but I was really proud of overcoming, at that moment in time, the desire to eat when I wasn't hungry and give myself the time to gather the power over my 'temptations.'
This is going to be a long journey for me this time. I have a minimum of 150lbs to lose (well, 120 more) and I plan on doing it on the line, above board, no starving, no binging, no bad habits hopefully. I am NOT going to allow myself to be 'really' hungry so I am very conscientious of staying within my RDI every day.
And hopefully, within the next two years that it will likely take me to achieve my healthy goal weight, I'll have healed some of the bad mental and emotional habits I have with food.
One day, one bite at a time.
View Diet Calendar, 24 October 2012:
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1403 kcal
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Fat: 39.44g | Prot: 84.31g | Carbs: 189.50g.
Breakfast: coffee, lite fat free yoplait, Flaxseed, quaker oatmeal. Lunch: salad dressing, salad, grape tomato, chicken, schwans california. Dinner: wheat thin flatbread, chicken, salad dressing, salad. Snacks/Other: Wheat Thin Flatbread Cracker, 2% Milk American Cheese Singles, kosher pickle spear, kraft fat free american, broth, banana, Nonfat Strawberry Greek Yogur, apple. more...
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3109 kcal
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Exercise:
Sitting - 6 hours, Resting - 10 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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