davidsprincess's Journal, 10 Nov 21

Back to the gym but need to get the eating under control. I can do well all day and then a different me comes out around 7 p.m. and I feel like my day isn't complete without ruining it by eating 4 peanut butter and jelly sandwiches. Not sure what is wrong with me. Last night when I felt hungry- I actually just ate tomatoes, cottage cheese and a hardboiled egg. I need to do that more often because peanut butter and me... it is ridiculous. I was a little disgusted with others for awhile- feeling very smug as my weight was dropping off when people would say they couldn't eat chips or sweets. I acted like-'what a sad life that you can't portion something out so you can still enjoy it without going overboard' and TA-DA- that's now me. I'll eat the whole bag or at least several portions until I don't want it anymore. I am back to where I can no longer trust myself to portion out anything. I am better off just not having it. Maybe one day I will do better. Nothing in my being wanted to have a little more cottage cheese or one more hard boiled egg. ha. It's that sweet combo that really gets me and it is so gross for me to say. I hate fat people and fat people mindsets- so slovenly and gross. Yet- here I am. Oh well. Maybe once I get a better handle on losing, I will get to that point again.

92.6 kg Lost so far: 20.3 kg.    Still to go: 2.0 kg.    Diet followed: Reasonably Well.

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1826 kcal

Fat: 76.21g | Prot: 73.14g | Carbs: 220.06g.   Breakfast: McDonald's Hash Brown, McDonald's Egg McMuffin. Lunch: Dannon Two Good Vanilla Greek Yogurt, Great Value Hard Boiled Eggs. Dinner: Prairie Farms Dairy Large Curd Cottage Cheese, Lay's Wavy Original Potato Chips, Aunt Millie's Giant White Bread, Kraft 2% Milk American Cheese Singles, Oscar Mayer Olive Loaf Cold Cuts. Snacks/Other: Kellogg's Nutri-Grain Cereal Bar - Strawberry, Sahara Burst Grape Juice, Sunkist Fruit Gummies (Less Sugar), Oreo Thin Bites Fudge Dipped. more...