davidsprincess's Journal, 03 Aug 21

Feelin' F'n Fat too. You're not alone. (*_*) 

I'm feeling weak. We all have our bad days. You'll get through this, princess! <3 

Love that woman in the mirror my friend. You may not be where you want to be right now, but "you've come a long way baby" and don't forget it. (((HUGS))) 

Thanks, Shir- SM- and Becca. Diablo- difference being you aren't weak. Anyhow- Yeah- need to get it together.  

Thanks Petra. Not sure I'll have time for the gym today. Just plan to move more and eat less... always the plan. ha.  

DP it’s my 2nd time on FS & both times I’ve looked to you for inspiration. I think you look great. Wig, no wig.. 😉 & see you as a good body goal for tall, active women. I know we all see eachother differently to the way we see ourselves. I see you and I see tenacious, beautiful & honest (in a good way) and I appreciate that. 💕 

💕Thanks, piggy winkle! I feel like I shouldn't have said it because it is so whiny sounding and I hate whiners. That was such a sweet comment. I will stay on. It is hard to fail in front of people. Instead of holding me accountable, it is making me feel like shit but I can't tell if I want to go private so I can go off the rails even more or because it would really help to have less pressure which for a long time I was claiming I didn't feel. I think it is easy to say- I weigh daily regardless what anyone thinks and I track all my food and they can look and clearly see that I am overeating OFTEN when I am still maintaining or for a long time was losing but now I'm just climbing up and it is disgusting to me. I am beginning to hate that it is out there for everyone. My 10's feel a little snug and I am back to my hubby's weight more or less. Somewhere I didn't ever think I would be. SO many things I need to do better. SO MANY!!!! 

I can relate to this so much. I went private so I can share more but in a place I feel safe too 🤷🏻‍♀️. I think seeing ups & downs is very human and very likeable & relatable. Who are these people that have it sorted 24/7?! I don’t know any IRL. Life is a wave you just gotta ride it ✌🏻💕 

You look as young as your nieces!!!🙂 

Lol, Maine. Those are my sisters. The blond is older than me by 20 months and using botox... The two brunettes are younger by 10 and 12 years. The girl with her face cut off is my niece. Thanks! ❤️ 

I just saw this DP. Looks like you gals had so much fun!!! You are a beautiful and striking woman!!! I also hope you don't go private!!!!!! The majority of us struggle with the same things you do. That's why we're here! Honestly even though I hit my goal to lose weight, I still don't like how I look. I can always find a reason not to like myself!! Don't look at my diet lately! I've been eating alot of crap and sliding on the protein. I definitely notice an increase in my hunger even though I'm eating more calories. I'm just saying this because I could totally see my habits slowly go back to my old ways over time. No judgment here with this crowd! One of the things I like about FS is that if no one posted pics, or shared their age, race, wealth or whatever...there's a connection on a deeper level that you will make with certain people that goes beyond all that superficial stuff. It's kind of like "The Voice" where you hear the singer but dont judge them by appearance. I love that! Yes, we love your muscles and dedication in the gym. But, it's more than that!!! We relate and connect on a deeper level! Don't feel you are whining! I think stress and monontony of responsibility play a big role in managing weight. I blame work stress as the biggest reason I gained weight. Our culture pushes ideals of a perfect figure, but falls short in supporting work, life balance and health. It makes it really difficult. If you need to vent, vent! This has been an especially tough 2 years with the virus. Anyways, ultimately isn't connection what we all really crave deep down? I'm glad you're here and it wouldn't be the same without you!!!  

Honestly DP, I don't know how well I'd be doing if I wasn't retired. I have lots of time to plan meals, cook them, measure everything, etc. When I was working breakfast was a quick, on the go almost afterthought. When I was trying to lose weight I'd often buy frozen Lean Cuisine meals for lunch to throw in the microwave...and I didn't particularly like them. Dinner was simple on most nights...a peice of meat or fish, a starch & a vegetable. You have expressed how stressful your job can be yet you make time for the gym and still log your foods. I admire everything you've accomplished already. 

You might not be happy with where you are yet, but I think you're beautiful & have a healthy physique. I love that you're here on FS & when I went public in 2019 you were one of the first people I connected with. If you're feeling like venting...vent away. We get it. It's not easy eating right & doing the things we need to do to stay healthy ALL THE TIME. Just keep trying, working at it & lean on us for support when you need it. 

Thanks, bear! Thanks, Sherry! Love you girls! ❤️  

Dang, thise last 2 comments from Bear and Sherry brought tears to my eyes. I know you're feeling the love DP. ❤ 

I know, Becca. Every person who commented on here is a fs favorite of mine. Reminds me how lucky I am to be supported. ❤️ 

❤ Right back at ya Princess!!!! ❤❤❤👸 

Ha. Thank you, Tim. Eyebrows are such a big thing the last few years. I get a ton of compliments and I don't do anything but pluck. Finally an area where I seem to have lucked out. God help me the day I have to draw them on. 😬 

I love that you got to have this time away. After all the work you do day after day after day under extremely stressful and difficult circumstances, it must have felt great to forget for a tiny moment. You look beautiful, but more... You ARE beautiful! You know I adore you and am so very thankful for you. You are my inspiration every single day, my friend! . I know it has been rough to get to the gym and not eat more than your plan to consume, but dear, I get it! ♥️ I don't know how you have held it together as much as you have with your insane schedule. It simply is inhuman how much you have been facing. Please, please give yourself a break! All you can do is one day at a time, and you know what works for you. Maybe this week will be a bit easier and allow more time to do what you want and find the balance you are looking for. Hugs to you even if you don't want one! 😁 ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ 🌹 

Thanks, Melissa! I'll get back at it... I think. 😘 I'll save your pics on my phone for motivation. 😉💪🏼