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Not good, my loves, not good at all. I didn't get to the gym yesterday for emotional reasons. But my calories were in the right place and the scale is moving in the right direction.
My brother had some problems with a co-worker who happens to be friends with my husband. Apparently this co-worker told my brother that my husband said some things about him that were never said, and since shit rolls downhill instead of being a man and taking it up with my husband my brother came after me. He said terrible things that broke my heart, and I spent the majority of the day yesterday bawling my eyes out. Addiction is a nasty terrible thing that kills, destroys families, and so much more. I'm trying to pick myself up and move forward today. The coworker that started all of these problems for me is married to my 'friend' that got me set up in the biggest loser challenge at her office. I am seriously considering forfeiting, I don't want to see her. I know I won, I know it, but to announce the winner they want me to meet them at a bar in Cleveland on Friday at five, and I always work until seven anyway. Just not feeling it, stuck in a rut to say the least.
It snowed last night, and every single road on my way to work this morning was a sheet of ice. No worries, that is why I have a 4-wheel drive. Worth every penny. In all reality I should go to the gym today, get my cardio on, but it's so cold and crappy... and I'm so down and out. It's going to take everything I have to get me out that door. I'll do my best, but no promises.
I hope everyone is well, thank you for letting me rant at you. Don't worry about me, I shall survive, I always do! If I was soft I'd have never have made it this far in life, let alone weight loss.
View Diet Calendar, 12 November 2013:
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1379 kcal
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Fat: 17.52g | Prot: 110.60g | Carbs: 171.01g.
Breakfast: Coffee-Mate Fat Free French Vanilla Liquid Coffee Creamer, Coffee-Mate Fat Free Original Liquid Coffee Creamer. Lunch: Kraft Shake 'n Bake Original Chicken, Green String Beans, Bush's Best Grillin' Beans Texas Ranchero, Pork Chops (Top Loin, Boneless, Lean Only). Dinner: Sweet Potato, Ukrop's 93% Lean Ground Beef, Lakeland Hamburger Bun, Heinz Tomato Ketchup. Snacks/Other: Crystal Light Crystal Light on the Go Sugar Free packets, Beatrice Skim Milk, Nutrilite Whey Protein Powder - Vanilla, Bananas. more...
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3121 kcal
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Exercise:
Exercise machine (fast) - 45 minutes, Resting - 15 hours and 15 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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Love that you know your strength. I know this is a do as I say moment but - please go to the gym. You will feel so much better after you go. It won't just be the workout... it will be the taking control of your life that will feel so good.
It is such a difficult thing to not let what people say and do get to you. But you know that you can control only you. Everything else - well it really does not matter. I know you love your family and friends. But really - you can't control anything they say or do much less what they think. You can only control yourself. Say that many many times a day and maybe someday it will really resonate deep within you. I do it but it has not really taken hold yet :)
Go to the biggest looser thing... you deserve it. You want to win - you have worked to win - you likely have won. WHy would you not allow yourself to bask in the glory of that. Screw that bitch! Who cares about her or the trouble that she has started??? She is stupid and mean or at best very confused... why should that take away from you? You did not make her that way. You can not help her. Does she pay your bills or clean your house or take care of anything in your life - NO. She does not count.
Hopefully that is enough said but if not - I can certainly go further into a rant of cheering you on and putting her in her place :)
12 Nov 13 by member: alexzwk
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You know what, you gotta work it out of you. I find when I'm upset, I can run further, faster. It's in me to get out and thus I get a great workout and I feel better. So, get on the cardio machine of choice and get going. And as you are pounding it out, things will make better sense. You will feel better too!
12 Nov 13 by member: aggie95
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A lot of us have had to deal with addiction in our lives from loved ones. I hope you can find the time to attend some support groups. Maybe something on the line of alanon. Take care, and mega congrats to you for being a winner, in everything. You're an amazing lady.
12 Nov 13 by member: ClassicRocker
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Go to the biggest loser thing and show that b**** that she can not wreck your life as much as she tries. That would be the sweetest revenge...to beat her in this challenge!
12 Nov 13 by member: kmunson
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Yup, kick their butt! You have nothing to hide from, your hubby didn't even say that stuff so walk in there proudly and claim your fame! I also agree with CR that if you get a chance to look into it, a support group may help you deal with your brother and how you're feeling about the situation.
12 Nov 13 by member: just_keep_swimming
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Yolanda please don't let others ruin your success. You love your brother no matter what he is but you cannot change him. You have to put yourself first in this as nobody else will. I really am looking forward to hearing about your win. You're a winner so don't let ANYONE sabotage you.
12 Nov 13 by member: LadyBea40
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It stinks that adults have to start crap like that. I hate when people never grow up. I agree with the others who've said go to the biggest loser "ceremony". I think it would be good if you did win to hear someone else say it and have others be happy for you. Try to go if you can because you deserve it! Maybe she won't go and you won't have to worry about her anyway. The other thing is, if you go you may be an inspiration to someone there who's been struggling. They may see you and all the work you've put in and realize they can do that too if they're willing to put in the work. Get back on the gym train too and that might make you feel better. :)
12 Nov 13 by member: mars2kids
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From the very bottom of my heart, thank you all. Not being completely alone in this has given me so much more strength and if I didn't have you. You are all absolutely right, I don't need to let their stupidity (my brother included) take away from my own success. I did go to the gym, forty-five grueling minutes on my favorite cardio machine doing interval training. I'm pretty sure I scared everyone else in there with my ferocity, and like you said Aggie, I do feel better for it. Classic, I have honestly never considered a support group. My brother has gone to AA and NA (narcotics anonymous), but I never thought about support for myself. I will most certainly be looking in to that, and I will let you know how it goes. Thank you a ton. Mars, thank you for suggesting that I may be an inspiration to someone. I never thought of it that way. I spoke to the woman in charge of the biggest loser competition and told her I wouldn't be available at five, she said they would be there late so I can come as soon as I'm off work. I will attend, and I will be proud regardless. Unfortunately it won't be until next Friday, the 22nd. The anticipation will kill me. Again... Alex, aggie, classic, k, swimming, lady and mars... THANK YOU!!!
12 Nov 13 by member: Annabelle3117
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It's great how self-aware you are and cognizant of the fact the outside world can mess with our fitness & nutrition goals. It's fine that you took a day off for workouts, you'll get back on the horse. I cyber-stalked your Diet Calendar :) and it looks like you avoided emotional eating. That's awesome, shows great strength and amazing growth from our collective eating past behavior. You're my hero today - lol - don't let it go to your head............
12 Nov 13 by member: waynem37
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Somehow, someway emotional eating is a thing of the past for me. It has been so long since I have gone down that nasty road that it honestly never pops into my head anymore. I'm afraid to say that I've kicked the habit. In the beginning I always told myself that the food wasn't going to make my problems go away so what the heck was the difference. I'm honored to be your hero. BTW, my head is HUGE right now! :-)
12 Nov 13 by member: Annabelle3117
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Glad to hear you dd get out to the gym. I also agree with Classic, and it really is something that will help you in the future. As far as the 'friend'. did you consider she may have started all the trouble just out of jealousy?? She may have struck out in spite the only way she knows how. I agree that it will do you good to attend and glad you can go at a later time. I'm proud of you for all you have done to get where you are now!! Keep up that great work Yolanda!!! You are awesome!!!
12 Nov 13 by member: pumakitten
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