peeperjj's Journal, 26 Sep 18

My eyes were blurry so I took several. I like the way my arm and shoulder look here lol. This will go in my album for when I need motivation :). Like my pretty blue tank top? Decided it needed some modesty. 

Yeah... that arm's looking pretty fit... don't know about that "tank top", though. Hahahaha.  

Lol the implants aren’t ‘mine’ so it doesn’t bother me. However it bothers others and this pose made me feel like a lot would think it exposed too much with just the loose gown held up. Next time I’ll try to draw a better tank while riding in the car an hour after surgery haha. But yeah, it stinks haha.  

Chris, next time I’ll keep it black 😉. I wear gray and black most often so it would be fitting. Alive and well! And just cause I’m ornery... make me! 😝. Actually I had planned on it but hubby decided he needed a nap more. JA.. so dinners cooking, kids playing and I’m going to make calls and update family and a friend. Some insist a text isn’t enough, they have to hear my voice 🙄. So that’ll keep me busy for 2-4 hours lol. Thanks for checking on me/asking about me guys. Means a lot! Hope your day had been awesome!  

One of these day's the new boobies will feel like they've always been a part of you, until then you can inapporpriately show them off like show and tell. Hahaha! How are you feeling? 

Lol my mom did! Of course she had a prosthetic one not implant lol. When people would get all sad or ask questions she would pull it out and explain.. or toss it at her family. I just never stop and think about it in pictures anymore. Often walk around topless at home if hot and hubby reminds me to put on a tank before I go outside lol. Perhaps one day they will feel like breasts but as of now they are just something foreign objects there to hold up my clothes lol. 

I’m good thanks for asking! Have a huge bruise by my ribs and a light on over ribs. Now I know why that side hurts. He scraped my ribs trying to get fat from them. 🙄 Not sure why he tried from there when I have so much on my thighs and bum haha. He must’ve used all he could get to on my tummy and love handles. Wasn’t a ‘lot’ there but I’d think enough for his purposes. Maybe scar tissue from hysterectomy and first small fat grafting. Ibuprofen here I come! Not hurting bad enough for a narcotic. Refused them this time. 

Hahahaha - at your mom! She sounded like great fun! :D And ouch, ouch, ouch! Scraping ribs sounds awful.... only thing that sounds worse would have been hearing it - thank goodness you were knocked out... that said, Im currently having phantom sounds of your ribs being scraped for fat!  

Haha. Glad I couldn’t hear it too! I ‘think’ maybe he couldn’t get more from my abdomen so tried to go along my ribs or get a bit from my back. That seems logical IF he didn’t want to roll me over or didn’t want to do hips, butt or thighs. I would need another garment for that and it would’ve been hard to do anything with a leg girdle and abdominal binder. I’d have to take the binder off so that I could pull down the leg girdle just to pee! I plan on asking him in two weeks. That or the hospital when they call tomorrow or Friday. They probably won’t have a clue though. May call his office but I hate to pester them. He’s a top facial cranial surgeon who works primarily with children. He takes other patients like myself or burn victims when he has time. We get pushed back for thebkids a lot. As it should be. He doesn’t do plastic surgery for looks but rather a need because of birth, disease or accident. He’s highly regarded and respected by the other surgeons there. So I know he has a good reason. I just can’t decide on the likeliest reason :).  

And yes Mom was funny. She embarrassed many in the family including me at times. It’s one thing to chunk it at someone at a party but it’s another thing altogether to chunk it at someone over a meal lol. Of course I quickly learned that it was her way of lightening the mood and also making others feel at ease. It bothered her so if she made it funny then it didn’t seem so bad. I get that. When she found her cancer she lowered her shirt and said ‘Jo, feel this. I want you to know what a tumor feels like should you ever need to know.’. I did then pulled my own neckline down a bit and said ‘okay, want to feel mine? It’s only fair.’. She cracked up and told that story until the day she passed. Keep in mind that we were alone in her yard in the country and we only exposed what would be seen above most lower cut bras. I have no idea why I said it other than it popped in my head. Glad I did tho! When sad she would talk about that day and end up laughing. Of course my hubby the dork, once he heard he said he felt left out because he should know too. After all he would probably be the one doing my breast exams for me haha. She loved that too but told him he would just have to go off my verbal description to him lol. For a family with depression we sure had some good laughs :).