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I gained 1.8 pounds this past week. As I anticipated last week this week was going to be problematic as I was eating out almost daily often two meals in one day. Trying to calculate calories when eating in non-chain restaurants is often a bit of a crap shoot. To the best of my guesstimate I ate at least 70 calories per day more than the 'window' that I aim for. Since it is common for people to underestimate what they have eaten it is likely more than that. The point is that there is no mystery as to why I gained weight this week.
I have begun a book this past week entitled "The Mountain is You". Its premise is that self-sabotaging behaviour is a coping mechanism to keep me feeling comfortable in a familiar situation. In my case, when I weigh in the 170s to the 190s it is familiar ground. I am comfortable with my weight in that I know what I look like, what my body feels like and I have clothes that fit and look nice. Consciously I know that to be a healthy weight I should be aiming for 130s to 140s. I do not know what that will feel like or look like. It is new territory. That unknown makes me uncomfortable so I make choices to remain in the 170-190s. This subconscious desire to not enter into the unknown is at odds with my conscious desire to get to a healthier weight. It will be interesting to see what the book suggests as a means to bring my subconscious and conscious minds into alignment!
In the meantime life goes on! I am looking forward to having my son visit. I will be picking him up on Wednesday. Christmas is always fun. We get to tell the grandkids about taking them to Portugal in May! They will be so excited. I continue to work at my father in law's and have sold about another $1500 worth of stuff in the past week and a half. So much more to go...!
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