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It really is amazing what happens when we completely give up on ourselves.
For 3 months I've lived ad a hermit, not leaving my apartment for days and having junk food delivered to my door.
My sleep schedule is so wacky. Awake until 9am. Sleep until 5 pm. It is the complete opposite of the rest of the world.
I guess when you want to avoid life, it's the best way to do it.
I think the worst part is my complete lack of caring, of motivation, of anxiety.
This must be so Greek to everyone
How could someone live like that and allow themselves to practically die...
I don't even know what to do. I don't know how to start to get a life back.
My circumstances with work- or rather lack of- have enabled me to continue on like this for so long with no one knowing, but I can't carry on like this forever.
Pretty soon someone will find out, I'll be fired and have no source of income.
If the first step to getting over alcoholism is admitting you uve a problem, then admitting I have an addiction to food and self destruction would be te first step for me... Right?
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97.5 kg
Lost so far: 0 kg.
Still to go: 31.8 kg.
Diet followed: Reasonably Well.
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Gaining 0.7 kg a Week
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