Egull1's Journal, 09 Jan 21

Truly, information is power. You’re doing a great job. 

I love that you constantly assess and adjust and make it happen. I assess and then I don't change. Great job- always consistent and oh so fit! 💗🤸🏻‍♀️💪🏻 

Thank you, Kat & DP :-) I have a genuinely curious nature about these things. I started out a hard science major when I was young before I made the transfer over to social sciences and brain theory. We had to study a lot of biology and physiology back then. How the body works and functions or compensates and adapts when things "aren't going" just amazes me. And, adapting and making changes can be a hard thing to work through for sure DP, even when the changes we're trying to make are there to serve a goal that's in the best interests of our health and well being. When this process first started back in 2017, it felt like that old episode of Seinfeld where George Costanza brings on all this success in his life by deciding to do the complete opposite of what he might normally do in any given situation! LOL. It felt like that is what I had to do with my approach to nutrition and exercise and I confess when the motivation fell away (and, that didn't take long) - I might look over at my Mom and say "today this head was not in it to win it and the most I can say about that workout is I just showed up!" And, I'm really not lying when I've written in previous posts, there were some days I wanted to throw the damn weights at the wall in a rage because this toddler mind was throwing a tantrum because I kicked its ass out of its comfort zone. It's just I had been down the habitual path of quitting or giving up so many times, I was more sick of this minds excuses than I was overwhelmed at the thought of what consistency and commitment might bring. One might say I was sick and tired of being sick and tired. But, man o' man what an inward battle I had to fight. Inevitably, this mind surrendered because it started to see the results. Not only that, it started to see this body was capable of doing things it never remotely thought possible. And, that is when this body, mind, and heart finally aligned and now having the chance to cultivate this kind of health and vitality feels like a privilege that humbles me to tears some days. But, rest assured transitioning into this present state of mind did not happen over night, LOL. And, there are still days when I'm just showing up to do the work and thankful when it's done ;-)  

❤️ Thank you for that!  

What size are you trying to be? A normal 13 year old weighs 100 pounds.  

My hero 💪💪💪💪💪 

Cassie, I don't know Egull's height, but a short woman (5 feet or under) can weigh under 100lbs and be at the lower end of the healthy BMI range --- and I know, I know, BMI is imperfect, but it's still a pretty good measure of being on the right track or not for the average person. 

At 5 feet, a normal adult female could weigh 97lbs. 

@Cassie - LC hit it right on the money. I'm 5'2 (and, a quarter) - us shorties count that quarter inch, LOL. 101 - 136 lbs. is considered a healthy BMI for this height. When there is less surface area to the body, it requires less fat, less energy, less muscle mass, less of almost everything in order to function. Something us shorties become all too aware of unfortunately when we go to calculate our deficit and/or maintenance calories. We tend to get the "short" end of the stick, literally - LOL. I do take some pride in the fact that I don't actually look 112 lbs, due to the muscle mass. There's nothing scrawny or fragile looking about his physique - it kinda speaks for itself, which just tickles me to no end :-) As for what "weight" I'm trying to be? Whatever weight that continues to allow me to keep "excess" fat off this body, expand this forms strength and agility through physical movement, and cultivate a blissful transcendent sense of well being to the greatest measure of my health and vitality. Hope that answers your question :-)