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Run, Run, Fast As I can, I am Afraid of the Gingerbread Man! Yesterday evening I ate over my R.D.I. and some of it was food I honestly don't really care for. I went to a 10 year old's birthday party hungry and ended up eating tater tots, a hot dog, birthday cake and peppermint icecream. (the tater tots were the big surprise over-do)
I know what I was thinking while I was doing this so in the future I will try to recognize my thoughts and make better choices under similar type circumstances. I was feeling uncomfortable because my friend of 20 years who is about 75 pounds overweight always says she wants to lose weight. I have never seen her lose more then 10 pounds. She chuckled and said,"she and her husband want to lose 40 pounds." I felt sad because I knew in my heart that she really doesn't believe she can lose weight. Since she failed at several attempts she doesn't know how and really doesn't want to lose weight or else she would because she is a smart lady and could find a way.
I was popping countless tater tots and eating cake and icecream without knowing how many calories I was eating because I wanted her to know she could eat and still lose weight.
I had approximately 600 calories left at this point and should have pulled out my little calorie book, looked up the tater tots, and portioned them out. I went way over my R.D.I. with something I really don't care about and an ego trip. My weigh in this morning was not surprising as being diligent and viligent about being accountable (thank you Information) it allows me to recalibrate, think about what I have done right and what I can do better.
My whole mind-set this year is to keep within my R.D.I. and exercise for an hour a day 5 to 7 days, or anytime I can move my body. This has worked out very well for me because I never feel deprived, feel lots of extra energy, lost over 40 pounds, and am learning to love my body by taking care of it. Yes, I am afraid of the Gingerbread Man this time of year with all the social food gatherings because I don't know what patterns I may slip back into. Catch, Catch me if you Can I Am Not Afraid of the Gingerbread Man:) My new Mantra for the next few weeks, let's see how well I do and what else I may learn now that I am focusing and am aware. Thanks Nelson here is a quote I made up because you asked me to think about something and put it into words. "I once thought I was a fat girl and I carried a heavy load, I let go of the weight I was carrying and discovered I was thin all along". TOWANDA!!!!!!!
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68.9 kg
Lost so far: 18.6 kg.
Still to go: 7.7 kg.
Diet followed: Reasonably Well.
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Gaining 6.3 kg a Week
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We are learning everyday and it also is precious. You're evaluating and refocus, Lisa and that's beautiful. When we slip, we just smile kindly to ourselves and get going to where we're heading. You're very precious to all of us, Lisa. Have a peace filled weekend!
11 Dec 10 by member: happynow
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What a great journal Lisa. Eventhough you may have goofed a little you definitely recognize why and how you did it and this will help you to recognize those feelings in the future and perhaps react differently. Funny Lisa your's in the second journal today about peoples reactions to our weight loss.
11 Dec 10 by member: chattycathy1955
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I love your analysis of what motivates one to behave a certain way around food. And you could have been talking about me when you described your friend. My hubby and I had been saying, with little hope, that we'd lose 50 pounds for the last 10 years or so. I wish I knew what finally flipped the switch for us.
11 Dec 10 by member: cocobutt
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Lisa I am in tears here as I have had similar situations.
People DO KNOW HOW TO LOSE WEIGHT but IT IS THEIR CHOICE TO NOT TOO! Actions speak louder then words and when it comes to losing weight most people think that they need to give up their twinkies and donuts but thats far from the truth as you and I can attest to that garbage nonsense.
Do what your doing and keep pushing forward!
This time of year may be difficult but if we set some alarms, guidelines and a little restriction and follow them we may not gain as much as we once did during holidays... Weight gain can happen during holidays but with the right tools and right mindset which you have you on the right path.
Your friend will get very jealous of you if not already and with only 17 pounds for you to go let me assure you that put up those guards because she may bite your ass a little as others will try too also. This may not happen but if it does your ready if that make sense.
Proud of you!
11 Dec 10 by member: gizmonel
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It can be so difficult when we see the ones that we care about try, try, and try, and never really succeed. I wonder how many times I was the one that others were feeling this way about. And I wonder how many of them still believe that I won't be able to stick with it this time, either. But I will succeed and persevere, and surprise all of them. Of course, I may have times when I will slip, but I will never fall back into the abyss. That part of my life is over.
11 Dec 10 by member: ctlss
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Lisa your so good to point out that we are all human. Sometimes we are
in the do or die mood. Like since I hate this I have blown the whole day.
And start eating everything. But we all mess up at one time or another but we have to learn to except the fact and move on. Thanks Bren
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Love hearing your thoughts Lisa. You *know* that you really need not fear the Gingerbread Man (I'm reading this as "Appetite" as I've never progressed beyond the melody of that song) because *you* are the decision maker in this picture. Knowing when and how to apply a little discipline is all we need, no rocket science involved. And... If we make a mistake, there is always the following day to atone for our sins ;-) I am on track to completing a perfect fast today and am even contemplating a visit to the gym. We'll see what the morrow brings on the scale. Take care good buddy.
11 Dec 10 by member: information
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