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same weight this morning. been good and bad all week with following my meal plan. i just get so tired of having to think so much about what i'm eating and how many calories and salt and fat and carbs are in everything. damn it! i have enough to do and worry about.
again, i know-exercise is the key for me. but i swear, i don't have the energy to get through a work day much less work out. i don't care if this sounds like an excuse or if it is. right now, that is how i feel. i don't get good restful sleep so my brain is so disconnected half the time, i just stare at my computer screen trying to focus on what i have to do (my chatty co-workers don't help either-i would like to take a ball bat to them sometimes. actually, most times.)
i feel depressed and disappointed in myself most of the time and have been this way for so long, i don't know what happy feels like anymore. proud of myself? few and far between. the only thing i have done for myself and have to be proud of lately is-tomorrow is 1 year since I quit smoking. it's a big thing to be proud of. if i could tap into that determination again, i could do this, no problem.
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106.1 kg
Lost so far: 2.7 kg.
Still to go: 42.6 kg.
Diet followed: Reasonably Well.
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steady weight
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