Lisa Online's Journal, 16 Jul 11

Definitions of loser (n)
los·er [ lzər ]

1.somebody who has not won: a person or team that has failed to win a specific contest

2.somebody put at disadvantage: a person or thing adversely affected by a situation or course of action

3.somebody unsuccessful or unlucky: an unsuccessful or unlucky person who seems destined to fail repeatedly
Synonyms: failure, also-ran, underdog, dud, has-been

Interesting that in the definition of "LOSER" it specifically states "who seems destined to fail repeatedly" so one "who seems destined to succeed repeatedly" is a winner?

I definitely feel I can feel in control and and am realizing changing old habits is going to be either difficult or easy. The choice is mine as to how I think about making changes. I can feel good or bad about myself, the feeling is mine to choose.

Our Perception of who we are and who we seem to be is so important isn't it? ....."If you keep on thinking what you always think, keep on doing what you always do and keep on eating what you always eat you keep on getting what you always get" What is it that I want? This is my choice as I do have a tendancy and habit of getting what I want at the moment and end up getting what I need. Transitioning is not easy or is it? TOWANDA!!!!

Revisit July 16, 2011
edit I WANT TO BE A REAL GIRL Doing what is required to feel good about oneself and is worth the effort. Loving and taking care of ones self by stepping outside of guilt, coming from your power, not your weakness, accepting yourself as you are right now, not taking oneself so seriously, and choosing life.

The following pledge is very moving. I copied and pasted it to my journal and then retyped it myself as it is exactly what I needed to Pledge to my body.

I hereby agree from this day forward to fully participate in life on earth. I agree to inhabit the appropriate vehicle for participation, a body. As a requisite for the sustaining of that body, I agree to eat consciously. The agreement fully binds me for the duration of my stay on earth.

As an eater, I agree to hone my hunger, eating when I feel hungry and stopping when I feel full. I recognize that as the biological need to eat is fulfilled with greater awareness, the benefits of well being will increase.

Because the essence of my participation in life is one of learning and exploration, I agree to experience uncertainty in my eating. I recognize my relationship to food is a learning process and I will inevitably make mistakes. Therefore, I agree to accept my humanness and imperfections and not blame or judge myself.

As an eater, I accept pain, I recognize that I may suffer pain when my body is disturbed by my choice of food and eating habits. I may also experience pain when emotional and spiritual hungers are confused with physical hunger. During these times I agree to sit with and hold a safe place inside myself in which to explore painful and difficult feelings. I recognize that to be fully alive I must be willing to heave the courage to sit with a full range of emotions.

I agree to work on finding the time and energy necessary to feed and care for my body. I pledge to speak lovingly and kindly to myself and to incorporate movement into my life in fun and joyful ways.

I further agree to accept that I have a woman's body: a body that is imperfect, vulnerable, curved and rounded. Because I am giving up the need to be perfect, I am willing to accept my body at its natural weight. I realize that my female body has qualities that mark my womanhood and that have a profound role and effect on human kind.

I recognize that eating joins me to all humaity and at its deepest level is an affirmation of life. Each time I eat, I agree somewhere inside to continue life on earth. The choice to eat is a fundamental act of love and nourishment, a true celebration of my existence.

I choose life again and again and again.

- Wellons, L, Celebrating the Body (1997), Austin, TX

Thank you Medusa and K8yk for posting this. It is beautiful.

I am excited on working on my perception and course of action with my FatSecret family.....TOWANDA!!!

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Exactly, Lisa. It really begins with our own thoughts. Years ago I told someone I knew "if you want to know how I "really" feel, just take a closer look" I said this because how I really feel is reflected by my appearance, by weight gain and the way I take care of myself (makeup & clothing). It was easy to get caught up in self-loathing when I looked in the mirror and in doing so I would continue destructive behavior, continuing the cycle of self-hate. I'm so glad we're sharing this journey together. I've learned so much! (((HUGS)))♥ 
16 Jul 11 by member: RubyRedSox

     
 

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