FullaBella's Journal, 11 Sep 13

Although the picture is worth a 1000 words I want to add a few more regarding the one of the hummingbird at the feeder on my previous journal and displayed below.

Getting that little feathered friend into Bellawood yesterday culminated two summers of faith testing patience. The hummingbird was for DH and while he hasn't felt like going outside for several months now I was delighted to be able to record that vision to share with him. I often use the video feature to capture the sounds of the birds chirping as well as the train whistles and church bells from blocks away. It's my way of taking him outdoors without taxing his health.

While I indeed love the doves and sparrows, finches and chickadee's too... the hummingbird flies as the reminder to me to 'give things time .. have faith and patience and it will happen.' The 'dots' are from the water sprinkler ~ it was running at the time and I didn't want to miss 'the first shot' - I think it looks kinda cool.



Wednesday - 9/11 - will I ever write or say that day without the memory? Not likely. Then again, it's crazy that my grandson's are 14 & 16 and didn't know what it meant; I went through their history books and found myself astonished it didn't even rate a chapter or mention. Sad. Makes me want to burn some books and start over. Hmm, wonder if they mention the history of the book burnings?

I'm feeling better - thank you all for your concern and suggestions on resolving the 'burning mouth syndrome' - I think mine was a result of flaking my BP RX too many days here recently. After taking my meds and a good long soak in the Jacuzzi I slept well too.

Something else I want to share - but not in a 'preachy know it all this is the way to do it' stance. I hope by now people who read my journals know that is NOT me. I still take this one day at a time; sometimes one minute at a time. But when I find something that has worked for me I like to share even if it only helps one person.

Cooking. Yes, the homemade macaroni & cheese yesterday was great and yes I was able to eat it mindfully compared to the days I'd say 'screw it... I'm blowing my 'diet' today ...' and climb inside the pot and lick the cheese off my fingers.

For me, I have found that the more I cook, the better I enjoy food to the point I don't need as much 'inside me'.

There's something about the time it takes to prepare the food, chopping and slicing (even more so on those days I don't cut myself )and smelling and visually enjoying the ingredients really helps serve as the true 'appetizer' for me.

My SD commented the other day 'why is it that you always cook MORE when you're losing weight? If *I* started cooking like you I'd gain!'

So, my best answer to share is, FOR ME, if I just toss something in the microwave or phone for delivery or fast food... I guess that's why I get trapped by just eating it quickly and still feeling unsatisfied. My hunger is likely satiated but everything else is still up for grabs.

Maybe sharing this will help anyone reading who feels 'losing weight means you avoid food whenever possible.' If what you're doing right now works for you, all around (emotionally and mentally too) then by all means, don't mess with it. But if you are finding yourself frustrated after eating.. still constantly thinking about food after you've finished ... maybe give good old fashioned home cooking, something very labor intensive, a try.

And if this reads as if I'm trying to claim the originality - I'm not. It's from EWYL where the author takes the concept 'I need to lose weight but I love food too much' and explains the process. If you really 'love' food, then give it the same time and attention as you do anything else you really love.

This concludes my disclaimers, caveats and apologies. Thank you for stopping by and I hope this finds you all having a great day.

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