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The voices in my head were up and at it early this morning. I swear - sometimes I think those folks need to come with a two drink minimum. Not that I think they are all 'that' amusing; just after a couple of shots they may be a little more tolerable.
Anyway - the end result of their conversation was 'I really do like actual oatmeal.' Everything else that follows was their debate arriving at that conclusion that began as I prepared my breakfast by pulling the flaxseed, coconut oil and cinnamon from the shelf:
"So, you know... you're still being quite the fraud..."
'Fraud?!? Now What?!?!'
"Well, you call this 'Operation Oatmeal' and you don't know if you even LIKE oatmeal."
'What?? How can you say that? I eat oatmeal 3-4 times a week! Check the food diary!'
"Sure, I have. BUT..."
'Yes?'
"Do you even like OATMEAL?"
'What ARE you talking about?'
"In the beginning, you ate two servings of oatmeal dressed up with a shovel of cinnamon, flaxseed and two splenda just to get it down without gagging. Then you decreased the serving portion of the oatmeal and added yogurt. Then you eliminated the splenda but added yogurt with fruit. Then you added coconut oil. Then you replaced the fruity yogurt with a lower sugar yogurt and real fruit. And then you replaced the regular flaxseed with a berry flaxseed. But all along... even though you're changing the contents... you're still dressing up the oatmeal."
'And what's your point?'
"Mmm... well, it reminds me of when you discovered you really didn't like chili once you didn't dress it up with a bunch of cheese, sour creme and chips. Or that you didn't like pasta, just the meatballs."
'Yeah ... so?'
Sigh.... "Well, stupid... if you are going to continue to get the mindful eating with intention and attention down, don't you think you need to do the same with Oatmeal? Maybe you don't like it and it's just the 'chili' for your yogurt, fruit & flax!"
'Uh.......(sigh).......you're right.'
"Uh huh... so..."
'So what are we talking about here? Nothing, nada, zip? '
"How about a tablespoon of that REAL butter you bought yesterday. Put a pat of it on the side of the bowl and maybe taste it individually and then the oatmeal and determine if you really like either one."
'But... '
"But what?"
'What if it's not enough and I'm still hungry?'
"If you're still hungry an hour later, get a yogurt. Get some fruit. Remember, you're trying to learn to satisfy your hunger naturally."
'Oh, yeah, duh....'
So, they settled it, and I did it. And I liked it.
I could actually TASTE the oatmeal and the real butter. I was eating and enjoying Old Fashioned Oatmeal. I could taste it, chew it, and actually really liked it. I wasn't chewing up a mixture of coconut oil, flax, fruit, yogurt.
Operation Oatmeal shall remain titled with Integrity. I am not a fraud. Thank goodness too. I'd hate to have to rename it and go back and edit my miles and miles of journals.
Note of observation: it is four hours later and I am finally hungry. So if I find myself in a place when I don't have choices accessible, I will keep nuts or peanut butter or string cheese in my bag to satisfy my hunger. I won't starve. I'll live. Better and better for the rest of my life.
After all, according to the news this morning, 70 is the new 30 ... I may have more time to walk the earth.
Thanks for stopping by and tolerating the voices. Count your blessings you don't live with them.
Bella
View Diet Calendar, 26 February 2013:
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1259 kcal
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Fat: 58.55g | Prot: 92.44g | Carbs: 101.68g.
Breakfast: Quaker Old Fashioned Oatmeal, Land o lakes butter. Lunch: Ham, Navy Beans. Dinner: Tomato, Strawberries, Filet Mignon Schwans, Red apple. Snacks/Other: Nostimo, Planters Nut-rition , Kraft Jalapeno String Cheese. more...
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