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03 January 2022

Last night I ordered the smaller Chinese Lo Mein noodles with an egg roll and I ate it all. 😋 I guess I wasn't ready to diet yet. I used the ol' "Start Monday" well here I am on Monday and I'm not liking having to be restricted. I dug in the cupboard and found my can of Ravioli comfort food and I somehow managed to not eat it. I had like 2 or 3 Keto peanut butter cups instead. I drank more water and feel full. 🙃 Since I am working from home this week I am my own worse enemy when it comes to food. I need to go shopping for salads. I need to remember why I have to watch what I eat. Why I am doing this. I want to look and feel better with more energy. I can do this. I am the only one hurting or helping myself achieve this goal. 💯 I am using this journal to vent through the food cravings because I am pretty sure when I quit smoking 🚭 I just replaced my cigarette addiction with my food addiction so I still have to face the -whatever you call it-

02 January 2022

07 December 2021

I am feeling blessed to be here. The amount of support I received for writing about my dad felt overwhelming in a good way. It makes me realize if I am going to live a healthier lifestyle, I have come to the right place. Thank you, I appreciate you all.

As for my eating habits... The not so good news is, yesterday, my coworker offered me her garlic bread from lunch, without thinking I accepted it and ate both pieces. I didn't need them, I wasn't even hungry. I knew better but I didn't care. I figured I would start all over again today.

The very bad news is, I didn't just stop there. I ended up eating all kinds of things I don't remember, didn't log, and know weren't the healthiest choices for me.

The very very very awfully bad news is... I couldn't sleep last night because I choked up some nasty acid reflux. I was shoving bread in my mouth in the middle of the night to soak up the burning acid in my mouth and throat. Drinking lots of water which helped dilute the acid some but also kept me awake running to the bathroom every ten minutes. I pretty much realized the hard way the choices I make during the day can really haunt me at night.

I ended up over sleeping. But, the GOOD NEWS is.... I stopped at the grocery store on my way into work late and bought some "healthy options" to stock the work fridge and freezer with. I also bought some "Keto Trail Mix" to leave on my desk in case of an emergency.

In the event my co-worker asks me again, I will be better prepared to politely decline and not be caught off guard.

01 December 2021

Well, my Nov 1 start date didn't exactly work out because my dad died. I found out he was divorced and I am his only surviving child. So I paid for him to be cremated and shipped to my house from states away. He and I are going to go on all kinds of fun adventures together now to make up for the last 40 years.

My dad died of complications from diabetes and kidney failure. He was on dialysis for over 3 years. He lived with his ex-wife, the master communications interceptor, who pretty much wouldn't let my dad sleep in a bed, wouldn't feed him, wouldn't take my dad to his dialysis appointments, and more...

Anyway, the day I found out I went to my doctor and had my A1C checked - It's the highest it's ever been and in diabetes language, that's not good at all.

I met with my personal trainer/diabetes specialist/exercise physiologist/life coach/personal trainer/co-worker/friend (all the same person) and I made a goal to walk 30 minutes 3x a week and log my food 3x a week and go from there. I need her help to check in with her weekly to hold myself accountable.

So here's to Dec 1st being my official start date =)

04 November 2021

Today's major step towards my goal is... Logging!

Goal: The desire to _____WHATEVER______
(lose 30lbs)

Steps: Logging calories (FS)

Day 1: Bought a huge water bottle at the store and forgot to bring it to work.

Day 2: Brought the huge water bottle to work to help offset my ZERO sugar soda consumption during the day. I didn't drink from it or anything, but I brought it. Logging my soda intake, I am/was averaging about 5 a day. 4 at work, 1 at home after work.

Day 3: Stood on the scale and tried not to die from shock. I am 11 lbs over what I thought I was AND 30lbs over what I want to be.

Acknowledged my goal of starting November 1st, 2021 with a co-worker. She mentioned drinking an 8 oz glass of water first thing in the morning and not eating for at least an hour afterward. I snacked on a mini Resees ZERO in the middle of the night before falling asleep to a weight loss hypnosis youtube audio on the tablet (might be more effective in headphones because of the whispering into the subconscious or whatever happens for 7 hours and 40 minutes of the recording)

Day 4: Ordered 2 containers of flavorless skinny something online that is full of vitamins and collagen to help women lose weight. Thought about the gross texture and flavor of the last collagen thing I was taking that I threw away into the garbage that I thought was the cause of my weight gain. Signed up for a new account here to start fresh so I don't sit here and compare my current weight management with progress in the past. Added my zero sugar soda to the database and started logging in yesterday and today's food to get started. I feel tired and want to take a nap. I also requested I sign up for another round of diabetes management classes at work because they helped me in the past to stay focused.


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