My name is Mortified...I mean, I AM mortified. Aside from these days, the heaviest that I ever was in my entire life was 164 lbs. I was then able to get back to my normal adult weight of 130 lbs in a few short months; this was 10 years ago, to the day. I used to live in a region of the country where it was pretty much 70/75 degrees and sunny almost every day. I was physically active most days of the week. I regularly exercised and ate a healthy diet and spend a LOT of time being active outdoors. ...And then I moved. The move wasn't involuntary, I chose to move out of state and far away to get away from a long term (almost 10 years), toxic relationship once and for all. I moved to another state where I had relatives but it wasn't a place that would be 75 and sunny every day, anymore. On the contrary, a place that has seasons, like winter seasons. It's a place where you are pretty much indoors from about November 1st through April, about 6 months out of the year, because of extreme cold. I knew what I was getting into weather-wise, but never anticipated the adjustment period and depression that would go along with such a change. In a nutshell, it took me close to 6-7 years to finally adjust and accept my new life here. In that time and up until present day however, I managed to gain a whopping 85 pounds over the 10 years I've lived here. Like most people I have tried and failed and gained more and more each year as time went on. Well, this all stops starting today. Some how some way I'm going to lose ALL of this horrible weight that has bogged me down, robbed me of my self esteem, made me feel ugly and unhealthy. For decades I have studied all aspects of weight loss. I have come across good information as well as misleading information. I know it can be very difficult to weed through all that is out there but in the last year or so, I have come across some new insights into weight loss and I believe that I now have the tools I need to succeed. 130 Lbs, here I come!