555Rachel's Journal, 19 May 12

Maybe I am Wrong...But I think it is want vs need. Sometimes our mentality is if it can't be the way I want, right now, screw it...gonna do it my way no matter the consquences. I call it the "I don't want to"'s. I did it a lot when I first started to take medication. E would have to make me sometimes. That's why I use promises with my weight loss journey. So when I say "I don't want to" exercise, I remember I have a promise to do a certain amount of mins per week. Or if I want to buy chips and I say "I don't want to" be good...I have a promise for no junkfood during the week. Until you find a way to control your "I don't want to"'s, I think you will have a struggle. We use food as control and a "to heck with the world". We like control. It's very genetic! But not very healthy. I think you are also VERY hard on yourself. One slip will cause you days of bingeing. So my advice is to accept that you will slip, and not to be so angry with yourself when it happens. Treat each new day as a new day; not linked to yeasterdays slip. And to find a way to control your "I don't want to"'s.  

thanks, I think you're right. I just have to find a way to get through it. Luckily, this week the wedding is only a month away and I want to look my best. I am just getting green each day and not fretting about the numbers. That way if I eat too much, I can do extra exercise to still get the green. I am glad you are doing this with me. I probably would have given up by now if you weren't. Good luck with your journey and I will see you on Tuesday.  

I feel the same. Sister support rocks! :-) See you Tuesday!