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More than 48 hours post-op! My mind is slowly returning to normal as the anesthetic goes out of my system. Gosh that stuff is potent - I can't even remember how I got home, and when I did get home I was a Zombie for the first 24 hours... awful. Awful for a reforming quasi-control freak that is!
So in the last 48 hours I have had to abandon my eating plan and basically eat anything that would go down. In my case, that was chicken noodle soup. My throat is still throbbing from whatever they put in it while I was under. It hurts to swallow, so my plan to eat my veggies and fish had to be shelved. I have to take antibiotics 3 times per day with my meals. I was given some crazy narcotic for pain but decided that I would not take it unless I absolutely could not cope with the pain (I read all the side effects and I just thought OMG - I don't want to take this stuff). So far so good for the pain part - I have been able to cope without the drugs. I weighed this morning and it was another OMG - I am about 197 lbs.
Amazing that I could gain so much weight in such a short time. But here's my gotcha! gotcha! Last year this time, I was floating between 230 - 235 lbs. I was lethargic! I was in pain - real physical pain with almost every step I took. I was a workaholic! I was tired .. really tired of the daily grind. I felt like a slave to the rhythm and I found it so difficult to find joy in anything ... I mean real JOY! Flash forward today.... I am more content and more aware of my life choices. The slave mentality is gone. I sleep well and I eat well. I lost almost 40 lbs (although I gained some post-operative weight in the last few days). The body aches and pain is a distant memory. Although I get some twinge of pain time to time, I don't cringe at the thought of my first step when I wake up in the morning. I AM SLEEPING ... REALLY SLEEPING AND GETTING TRUE REST... that is my biggest break through! My second biggest breakthrough is that I can walk for 2 hours with my daughter without huffing and puffing (last year, less than 30 minutes in and I was catching my breath with almost every step). I am reinventing myself ... I am doing things I never even dreamed of (independent consulting) and doing things I talked about doing for years (writing)! So, I will NOT worry about the weight that I gained in the past couple of days and the additional I may gain until I get back to eating my regular diet (and stop taking these antibiotics!!!). I have come so far in less than a year and a few steps back will not deter me. I remind myself, that "For every leap forward, there’s been a stumble backward—sometimes just an inch, and other times, what seemed like miles" but, for me, the important thing is that I have continued to grow and move forward towards my best self. So I can work with 197 lbs today because I know it is today's weight- not tomorrow's or next week's since I will change it. How cool is that?
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1037 kcal
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Fat: 67.86g | Prot: 31.93g | Carbs: 86.34g.
Breakfast: Blackberries, Whipping Cream, Butter (Salted), Tea India cardamom chai, Chicken Noodle Soup. Lunch: Chicken Noodle Soup. Dinner: Chicken Noodle Soup. Snacks/Other: Atkins Advantage Coconut Almond Delight Bar, Silk Pure Almond Milk - Unsweetened Original, Chicken Noodle Soup. more...
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