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My first day. I really tracked and followed it with the tools. I am going to make taking care of me and my health a priority. Not an afterthought. I was honest and put down EVERYTHING I ate. I used to get up and eat some food at night and record it onto the next day and try to cut back for my eating last night by (punishing myself I guess) the next day. It was an insane cycle and I was on a hamster wheel. I am worth the effort and focus of not doing that to myself anymore. So last night I ate a couple of the cookies that were in my house from a trip to Hawaii. I was going to use those cookies to crumble onto the enlighten ice cream dessert I am going to make when my friend comes over for dinner tonight. But when I get up in the night I am in somewhat of a trance and I see that I REALLY justify why I can just eat this and put something else on top of our enlighten. **Wow What a PATTERN* I do feel like in many ways -especially when it comes to that night eating=- it is VERY tied to emotions/old patterns and beliefs and I become extremely compulsive. To the point that I don't think...can't stop..etc. I know that trying something else is a recommended way to break that bad habit. Write about it. Have a cup of herb tea. Take a walk (well not at 3:30 in the morning though)...and for some reason when I wake up in the night...I am NOT sleep walking...but I do find myself in some sort of distorted thinking trance and I just don't value trying to stop. Last night I listened to a hypnosis meditation about not eating in the night. Well. worth a try I suppose. Anyway, I have concluded that I need to be honest with myself and NOT HAVE anything PROCESSED OR ADDED sugars in my house AT ALL. If it is there I tend to seek it out and eat it. Even brown sugar out of the package. Not all of it. But enough to feed my sugar beast in me and to sabotage my health. Well. This is enough for one day. I feel pretty good that I decently kept an eye on my macro % and I have awareness of what I am doing to myself. I CAN and will get whatever help, from God and from my fellow travelers...to change my relationship with food and with my self. :-)
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1923 kcal
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Fat: 71.22g | Prot: 145.70g | Carbs: 192.55g.
Breakfast: SunButter Organic Sunflower Butter, Granny Smith Apples, Red Raspberries, Kind Oatmeal Dark Chocolate Almond, Good Grains Steel Cut Oats, Evolve Classic Chocolate Protein Shake, Safeway Slivered Almonds. Lunch: Olive Oil, StarKist Foods Tuna Creations Sweet & Spicy, Kumquat, Ground Beef (95% Lean / 5% Fat), Baby Spinach, Nature's Promise Lentil Vegetable Soup, Trader Joe's Low Moisture Part-skim Mozzarella Light String Cheese, Twin Peaks Protein Puffs Mesquite BBQ. Dinner: Grainful Unstuffed Pepper, Parm Crisps Everything (1 oz), Cub Foods Ground Beef (93% Lean / 7% Fat), Sunset Mini Cucumbers, Trader Joe's Tzatziki Dip. Snacks/Other: Halo Top Creamery Chocolate Ice Cream, Pop Secret Popcorn Butter 100 Calorie Pop, Breyers CarbSmart Fudge Bar, Trader Joe's Hass Avocado, Evolve Classic Chocolate Protein Shake, Rowdy Mermaid Kombucha. more...
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2704 kcal
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Exercise:
Walking (moderate) - 3/mph - 1 hour and 40 minutes, Resting - 14 hours and 20 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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