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The retribution has started in response to last Wednesday. I feel that I am being punished for being honest. Yesterday morning I was called to meet with the head of another department. The meeting consisted of a large number of complaints by his employees: I am dismissive. They do not feel I listen to them. I don't do my job sufficiently.
I texted my friend with whom I work - the one who was dishonest - to find out information about something she was handling that was pertinent to me completing a task I was working on. I was emailed back with her superior copied. Simple communications are being handled different.
Last night, I received a call to draft a document for a higher up at 10 pm. When I called the higher up to find out how they would like me to get it to them for their signature (ie., email, fax, hand-delivery to their home by myself) I was immediately screamed at and demeaned.
Is this really worth it? I live in a rural area where jobs are not plentiful. My children are happy here. They are both in high school. I do not want to just pick up and move. But, there simply isn't very many other job opportunities for me here. I feel stuck. And, miserable.
I am trying very hard to continue to be cognizant of the fact that if I let this control me, I will end up eating for comfort. I am not particularly craving food. But, I am an emotional train wreck. I have repeatedly asked myself to look around and count all the blessings I have, all the achievements, and the fact that I have immediate family who love me. But, I keep hearing the voice in my head telling me all the negatives about me.
I walked a little over 3.5 miles last night. It did seem to ease my mind somewhat. But the voice is still there. I do not want to put on my clothes and high heels to go into another day like this. I now have less than 40 minutes to get to work. I wish I could call in sick. It just isn't like me to miss work even when I am hovering over the porcelain goddess. Even if I did call in sick I would be sitting here most of the day dwelling on what has transpired. I need to pull up my big girl panties (which aren't near as big as they were two months ago) and just deal with it. They can't take away my birthday (hopefully).
View Diet Calendar, 15 October 2013:
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585 kcal
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Fat: 9.91g | Prot: 29.14g | Carbs: 92.26g.
Breakfast: Gatorade G2 Perform 02 - Lemon-Lime. Lunch: Egg, Hellmann's Light Mayonnaise, Milk (Nonfat), Private Selection Organic Great Northern Beans. Dinner: Private Selection Organic Great Northern Beans. Snacks/Other: Reichel Foods Sliced Apples & Caramel Dippin' Stix. more...
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2519 kcal
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Exercise:
Walking (exercise) - 3.5/mph - 1 hour, Sleeping - 23 hours. more...
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I'm sorry for what you are going through Curves.
15 Oct 13 by member: Whattawoman79
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So sorry you are going through this...and it just isn't fair. Back biting in the workplace has become so rampant anymore!! If it was me, I would go to HR, or whoever was higher up that I could talk to and voice my grievances about what is going on. I would tell them that this is a really nice way to treat an employee, who was just being honest in a situation that had made her now to be the bad guy!! But that is what I would do. I can't tell you how to handle this, but I can tell you that you have to find a middle ground that you can live with. You have to weigh the pros and cons, and go with the best outcome for you and your family. If that means that you have to continue with this job for a little while longer, than thats what you do. Don't let job pressures and stress into your family life. I know that is a hard thing to do. I had a devil of a time keeping my issues with being a 911 dispatcher out of my personal life. I saw a little story once, about a man that planted a little tree by his front door. Every day he would come home, stroke the leaves on that little tree, and go inside. When asked about it, He said that was his trouble tree, that he left the worries and troubles of work there on the branches, and in the morning on the way to work, he would stroke the leaves and pick them up and take them back to work. I hope that helps you somehow. Sending out hugs and prayers to you 2MC, for your well being!!!
15 Oct 13 by member: pumakitten
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Tough time you're having - you're in my thoughts and prayers. I know you'll come thru this just fine but it's always nice to know people are in your corner.
15 Oct 13 by member: FullaBella
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I like this idea of the trouble tree.
** Thank you all for your comments.
15 Oct 13 by member: 2ManyCurves
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