Liv Lite's Journal, 08 Nov 21

🌺Welcome to Motivational Monday! Let's talk about how you truly feel about your body & you. I had a breakdown during my training session...

This week, my sister & her hubby came to visit and that was lovely, even tho she stresses me out to the max. We forgot to take some pics during the day and took a couple of hurried snaps while saying goodbye. I didn't feel pretty or anything but I felt kinda okay. I saw the pics and went: "Am I really that big and old???" Next day: trainer took video of me doing one of the movements and I started crying. I looked so ugly! Slow lumbering movements, looked like a big ox and definitely not remotely feminine. She was a bit shocked at my sudden breakdown. I cried a few minutes, snuffled it back up and went home defeated, yet a morsel of pride that I felt better for going. I relayed this incidence via phone to my other sister, talking about feeling SO ugly. She said" Well, yes, you're overweight, sooooo" Whaaaaa😮 I defended myself saying my face wasn't so bad! LOL I had forgotten this was a family trait: fat = ugly that I had lived my whole life. I do know this to be true: it's up to ME to feel good about ME. I ordered ME some nicer workout clothes, talked to that woman in the mirror (I do love her💖she's my best friend!), pulled out some spa packets to use tonight. ME is gonna glow up!!!! Frackkkkkkk all those who are insensitive, never understanding how their words can hurt. I send them positive vibes ✨ Listening to some groovy tunes, making my diet & workout plan for today, then pulling out the makeup box to have some fun with ME. I am the most beautiful lady in my little ME universe! 🦋 Don't let anyone rain on your parade - ever!!!! Have an awesome ME day, everyone! 💟

Wishing you a successful week with loving yourself & crushing your goals! Go go goooo!💪

136.3 kg Lost so far: 24.8 kg.    Still to go: 1.2 kg.    Diet followed: Poorly.

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1704 kcal

Fat: 51.66g | Prot: 121.53g | Carbs: 167.48g.   Breakfast: Compliments Frozen Raspberries, Bananas, Diesel New Zealand Whey Protein, Silk Almond Unsweetened Vanilla, President's Choice Chia Seeds, Flaxseed Seeds, Lemon Juice (Canned or Bottled), Progressive Vegegreens, Tetley Green Tea. Lunch: Sweet Red Peppers, Compliments Extra Lean Ground Turkey, The Laughing Cow Garlic & Herb, Becel Salt Free Margarine, Broccoli, Green Peas (Frozen), Knorr Sidekicks Butter & Herb. Dinner: Roasted Broiled or Baked Chicken Breast (Skin Not Eaten), Green Peas (Frozen), Mushrooms, No Name Frozen Mixed Vegetables. Snacks/Other: Progressive Complete Collagen. more...