melissatwa's Journal, 11 Mar 21

Hello, Melissa ❤😀 

Hey Melissa! 

Have a great day no gain wonderful 😊 

Hi Melissa people were searching for you on the site before. I hope you have a wonderful weekend with you and your family❤️❤️❤️ 

Yay there you are! 

Hi Melissatwa! Hope you’re well. Sleep well and get ready for Spring and Daylight Savings Time! 😄 

Hope your doing well! 

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Blessings Melissa miss hearing from you, take care!🌺 

Hello, Sherry and br_e_co! 💕Jenny trying to lose, but not gaining is at least a better alternative to gaining. 🙏 I am so thankful for the care and support here, ocean girl. I dont know where I would be without it. ❤️ I see you, HCB! 😘 Tom, I am so ready for summer! My roses are pruned and sealed and sprayed and mulched and ready for flowers... Fertilizer happening when there is a little more growth. I am so ready for warm, sunny days!  

Beauxpurdy, I'm OK... Just so much happening and I'm not happy with my progress and fitness. If I was a quarter as dedicated to work out as you... 🙄❤️ Much love, Becky! 🤗 I'm hope I g for a star one of these days, Lonnie. It had been a while since I earned one. 😢 Shrewdness, thank you for your kindness. Things have been really, really hard on a few levels, so... Just hanging on! 😁 Thank you all for your support! ❤️ ❤️ ❤️  

For you🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹 

Miss hearing from you!💜 

Hello my friend, don't forget to love yourself, you're worthy of it. 💛💜💚 

Thank you, Ocean girl, Diana, Shir, mermee! I appreciate your kindness and support so much.  

Had to come search for you. Been missing you on here. Hoping all is well Melissa. ❤️🙏 

Nice to see your post M❣️ Please fon't be so hard on yourself👍 

Don't be so hard on yourself! I'm sorry your having a difficult time, Hope it passes soon! My 'dedication' is more like seething rage; it was really rough when I couldn't physically run any longer because of knee injury, I refused to accept the reality of it. Denial, and didn't know what to do to burn up calories. Plus the anger and rage of being struck by a car from someone else's inattention. Angry at doctors because they couldn't fix it. The pain emotionally, physically, mentally, not being able to exercise my stress away like previously was difficult. I felt robbed. And guilty, because in reality, others do have much worse challenges in life. But after a lot of anguish I realized that I had adapted to really loving my old bicycle, I really had no choice. Never thought I'd say that. And swimming too. Don't get me wrong, *Im NOT happy!!!* that I'm never going to run a marathon. Lots of dreams were crushed. But I started doing things I never had considered enjoyable. Hoping things improve for you quickly! Hope your family is healthy and safe! 

Thank you, wifey! I am barely around, but I am trying to check in from time to time. I appreciate so much your support. Sk, I barely have time to be hard on myself.:)I'm not where I want to be, but I think things will ease up in the next couple weeks. I am just totally absorbed in helping one of my kids. A couple are having big struggles, but one needs me so much of the time right now. Thank you for caring and for noticing I'm trying! Beauxpurdy, I didn't know you had been through that... how very, very hard. I am so sorry. I have a knee that I thought was better and I am finding it isn't, but that is insignificant compared to your challenge. I do understand just a tiny bit of the rage and disgust because of an inattentive driver. When one of my daughters was 16 she was struck down by a driver while she crossed the road caring a flag in a marked crosswalk. Her life was changed forever. Daily we see her fight for what should be easy. Her chronic pain from the brain injury robs her of a normal life. We are in fights with insurance companies, doctors for help getting accommodations, lawyers... people who just don't get it. I get the anger even though it wasn't me that was hurt. Bitterness can eat you alive...so I don't want that for me or for her or for you. You have learned to fight and channel your energies a different directions. You are one amazing, hardworking girl! I really have so much admiration for you! I am inspired to work harder! Thank you for sharing your story and for encouraging me.