jcmama777's Journal, 18 May 19

Oh a balance diet 🧐 I like it 😋 

Don’t call it a binge, you enjoy yourself with food and Next meal right on track 

It was a total balanced diet but after 3 beers when I got home I was dizzy and I don’t like to feel drunk. I started vomiting like 3-4 times and because we have kids here I forced myself to eat 3 lean pockets Incase one got sick or had an emergency. The sushi was out the window once I got sick. It was definitely a weird night.  

I actually expected a huge gain especially after this week, but I stayed in a weekly deficit. Never expected a drop while Aunt Flo was here🤦🏻‍♀️ So hopefully next week is better 🤞🤞?? Surgery is Tuesday and I don’t anticipate a big drop or any.  

😂😂 idk but she is a real bitch waking me up at 4 a.m hot shower, 800 mg ibuprofen, heating pads, 1000 mg of Tylenol, tossing and turning and pacing 😩😩😖😫 she’s gots to go I cannot wait till my hysterectomy.  

I think the smaller we are the less alcohol we can tolerate...now with my size I can only handle 3 beers max  

Oh I stopped drinking whisky cause last time it made me vomit... maybe i can only handle less now...but have not wanted to taste since that day 🤷🏻‍♀️ 

😂🤮 

Don’t really care about that cause it ain’t even something I need to be drinking ☺️ 

I praying for you and your surgery Tuesday for your hysterectomy. I will repeat what I prayed and put on Pippster Bridget's comment to her journal, because I am praying these things for you too. I am praying for the best outcome for you. For the surgeon to do the very best job, for the nurses to be wise and helpful, for favor for you with the doctors, nurses, and all medical staff, for strength for you, for little pain, for a speedy recovery, for wisdom for you to know how to eat and take care of yourself afterwards, for you to learn what supplements you should take afterwards, grace to live as best you can after surgery in what will be your new normal: as healthy a life style as you can manage. The Lord loves you so much, more than you can comprehend. I know this is hard for you, but I pray for courage for you, for you to be resistant to all germs, in and out of the hospital, and that you will be getting better in your post surgery life, and that eventually this will turn out to be a positive for you, even though that seems impossible now. I pray for the Lord's blessing over your entire life, and that of your family. I also pray for favor for you with your aunt, that she will be kind and gentle to you and your children. Although she must be stressed out worrying about you and your children, help her to see you need her to be helpful, quiet, graceful, and strong. Lord, give them both wisdom as to what to say to her children continually, not only now, but while she is in the hospital and after she gets home. We know they will probably adopt the attitudes of the adults, so help them all to have a quiet confidence. Help them all to turn to You, to develop a stronger relationship to You, and trust in Your help in time of trouble. Help us all to remember to ask for Your help and comfort. Thank you Lord for what you are going to do in their lives.  

I'd probably do the same. I know I'm supposed to say something inspiring but I'm just being honest. I guess just think of how it's stalling your progress? Hugs and prayers kiddo. Thinking about you.