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232lbs weighing since Monday - Recording it even though I gave in to a most disgusting binge on MAYONNAISE last night. Two hours of Internet searches trying to intellectualize and conquer the craving while munching an apple yielded no help. Finally I said 'give it up and go to bed!'
Well my mind was willing but my feet took me to the fridge and before I could stop I was piling spoonfuls of Mayo on bread and gooseliver and shoving it in my mouth. If you're holding an expression of horror and disgust on your face youre not alone. I needed an Exorcism Intervention.
And I didn't stop there. A handful of chips and I started on that Onion dip I THOUGHT I tossed in the trash already.
While my body and brain couldn't stop me.. my stomach got even. I was up most of the night with acid reflux.
EDIT: I have SINCE added the binge to my diary so if you want to see what an out of control binge looks like, check out my 'other' for 11/29.
Oh - btw - the only thing I did find was 'protein will help stave off cravings for fat' - not in my case as I had chicken breast for lunch and steak for dinner.
Oh well - new day, stronger resolve. One bite at a time. One day at a time.
Thank you for reading.
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105.2 kg
Lost so far: 24.0 kg.
Still to go: 23.6 kg.
Diet followed: Reasonably Well.
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View Diet Calendar, 30 November 2012:
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959 kcal
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Fat: 30.84g | Prot: 63.67g | Carbs: 118.53g.
Breakfast: Coffee, Dannon Light & Fit Greek, Creamer, Flax Seed, Quaker Old Fashioned Oatmeal, Coconut Oil. Lunch: Spicy Mustard, Sargento Reduced Fat Colby Jack, Cucumber, Staceys Bagel Chips, Hormel Deli Lean Turkey. Dinner: Grape Tomato, Cucumber, Dressing, Spinach, Dill Pickle, Schwans California Blend, Schwans Salmon Burger. Snacks/Other: Dannon Light Greek Yogurt, Schwans Mixed Berries. more...
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3657 kcal
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Exercise:
Walking (slow) - 2/mph - 1 hour, Sleeping - 8 hours, Sitting - 6 hours, Desk Work - 6 hours, Standing - 2 hours, Housework - 1 hour. more...
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Losing 3.2 kg a Week
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Your right, my expression isn't great, but I certainly do understand. I think we have all craved into our cravings. Hope today goes better for you. Good job on your lost so far.
30 Nov 12 by member: Sirick
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Thank you and believe me - your expression of disgust can't be any worse than mine but onward and forward from here. If you want a laugh (or horror!) check out my Food Diary Snacks/Other for 11/29/12. Yuck.
30 Nov 12 by member: FullaBella
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Getting right back up and starting over is the key! You have made great progress and you shouldn't lose sight of that! You have a lot of challenges in your life and getting healthy is just one of them. One day, one choice, one bite at a time is a great way to look at it. Sometimes I equate our weight loss journey to the same journey taken by alcoholics and addicts in the 12-step program. I view my buddies as my "sponsors" and you have helped me stay the course since we became buddies. Thanks FullaBella and know that we support you in your goals to get healthy!
01 Dec 12 by member: RiverRes
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Thank you RiverRes. I am right there with you. We all have a lot of issues to work on and to take a page from AA 'together, we can be better'. Yesterday and so far today I have been back on track and have given much restrospective thinking to that 'out of control' binge so that I'm better prepared for 'whatever' it was that possessed me that night so that I'll be able to recognize and confront it better next time. I know my journals are long winded because this is where I vent out the demons in my head and it helps. I can't help but wonder why, with all the 'research' I did that night to identify the craving of Mayo ... why I didn't come here & journal about it instead. The intellectualizing failed me ~ getting the crap out of my mind is helping me succeed. I feel sure if I'd journaled the 'I have this stupid craving that doesn't make sense' feeling I'd have been strong enough to keep walking to bed instead of giving into a feeding frenzy. So, thank you too. The support here is incredible and know that I support everyone else here too. One day, one bite at a time.
01 Dec 12 by member: FullaBella
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