FullaBella's Journal, 26 Nov 12

235lbs for three days in a row - I'm recording it. Monday morning back at work and opened an hour early and have been pretty busy until now. Walked to the market to pick up a gallon of milk for MH - three months ago I'd have driven. Or sent someone after it. I was a little disappointed my new little pedometer didn't register any 'aerobic' on the walk because i thought I was puffing right along but I am still proud of myself for pulling on my sneakers and choosing to walk, period. A few 'non aerobic' steps in the right direction.

I struggled most of the weekend with the oxymoron 'good fat' and internet research.
While I have finally accepted the concept of the good fat in eggs, avocado & peanut butter I was still on the fence with the coconut oil. It's really hard for me accept the 'long chain vs short chain' theory of 14gms of saturated fat per tablespoon.

Finally, about 2am this morning I came to the following conclusion:

I remembered to reflect on my history of losing weight by starving and seriously cutting out fat. I remembered times when my fat intake allowance was less than 20gm a day and THAT was giving even zero fat items a 1gm count after I read a report explaining that as long as the 'serving' contained less than a gram of fat it could be considered fat-free so if I ate 5 fat free items at .95 grams I needed to count that as at least 5 grams.

And I bet you thought I was being hard on myself when I refer to how obsessive I used to be in the past.

And the point is, these past methods that always failed me in the end resulting in regaining the weight.

So why not give something new a shot? After all, that's what I've been doing this whole time with the healthy caloric intake and quest to find new healthy foods.

So while I don't think I'll add it to three meals a day as suggested ~ I am going to continue, for one month, to add it to something once a day - probably my morning oatmeal. If 14gms of fat a day has such a negative impact on my path that I began to increase inches, I'll stop and discard the jar.

Thirty days to test to see if there are noticeable changes, positive or negative, in my body.

I mean, what the heck, it can't be any worse than the saturated fat via pizza, double cheeseburger, ice cream and cheesecake delivery system I utilized for too many years, right? Again, this is trying to cure the insanity ala 'doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result.'

106.6 kg Lost so far: 22.7 kg.    Still to go: 24.9 kg.    Diet followed: Reasonably Well.

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1035 kcal

Fat: 29.39g | Prot: 90.64g | Carbs: 116.21g.   Breakfast: Dannon Light & Fit Greek, Creamer, Flax Seed, Quaker Old Fashioned Oatmeal, Coffee, Coconut Oil. Lunch: schwans chicken breast, schwans cal. Dinner: Hormel Deli Roast Beef, Dressing, Dill Pickle, Cucumber, Grape Tomato, Spinach. Snacks/Other: Jazz Apple. more...

3705 kcal

Exercise: Walking (slow) - 2/mph - 1 hour, Sleeping - 8 hours, Sitting - 6 hours, Desk Work - 6 hours, Standing - 2 hours, Housework - 1 hour. more...