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Memories, like the colors of my mind...Remember Poet-in-Motion? Whatever happened to make her leave? I know my own journey here has been slow, slow, slow. I think if I expected that you all were judging me harshly that I might not want to come back - however, I am grateful that all those who have responded directly to me have been supportive and helpful, even if I have not been so myself.
Not sure if this is going to stick, but the downward weight trend is there - I feel wary of the lower number, but resolved to follow up as best I can!
Also, I am going to go back to Weight Watcher meetings starting soon, maybe this week - maybe I can get my neighbor to go with me. And back to the gym, too, I think I have adjusted to the night schedule all right and will proceed through the summer on this schedule.
Busy day today - bridging Girl Scouts up to the next level in a big ceremony tomorrow, and only two troops are attending out of 6 on the original list! so, I have some shopping to do for that, even though my own daughter can't even make it until latw, which means she might miss the whole thing entirely.
The weather is bad for the next few days - so the place is dreary here and I am not feeling great anyway. This getting divorced is like knowing that there is a party you aren't invited to and then you have to decide to remember that you didn't want to be invited to the party in the first place. Actually, I have to accept that I wanted to be invited but then was DISinvited altogether. I think the hard part is realizing that my ex could have changed but didn't want to. And it is certainly easy to say he could have when maybe he did the best he could and that what he did just did not get us into a "together" mode.
All of which is to say, eating badly didn't seem to soften the blow of that loss - maybe I should concentrate on treating myself better so that I can cope with whatever happens as I go along here.
Well, I am off to pick up a case of round tablecloths for my upcoming events - hope you have a good Saturday!
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71.6 kg
Lost so far: 4.6 kg.
Still to go: 14.9 kg.
Diet followed: Not Applicable.
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1831 kcal
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Fat: 61.32g | Prot: 76.53g | Carbs: 198.76g.
Breakfast: Coffee with Skim Milk, Pancakes with Fruit. Lunch: herb rice. Dinner: bean, cake, peach nectar, champagne, cheeseburger, chicken breast, Baguette, brie, ranch dressing, Lettuce Salad with Assorted Vegetables. Snacks/Other: girl scout cookie. more...
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Losing 1.3 kg a Week
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Yes definitely treat yourself better. Move on slowly. It will get better. Don't feel that this was all your fault or all his fault. People change and sometimes one changes and one doesn't. It unfortunately is just part of life. Look forward to your new life. Make some plans and get doing them. It will be lonely sometimes but lonliness is far better than being in a relationship that is not working. Take care and have a great day. Have fun picking tablecloths!
12 Jun 10 by member: chattycathy1955
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good point i havent heard anything from poet in motion for a long while, were people judging her harshly?
12 Jun 10 by member: SelinaMinus60
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No she wasn't judged harshly at all. I think she was just upset with herself because she wasn't losing like she wanted too. She just didn't feel the site was worthwhile to her anymore.
12 Jun 10 by member: chattycathy1955
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I am missing something here, poet-in-motion. Was that an ex-FS person? Abba, divorce is very tramatic and will take time. Healing is slow, but you WILL heal. You had a lot of years together and share children. But, as I have found, time, time, time...is on your side. Remember that song? It's true. Work on getting yourself in shape and in good health. The healthy body will beget a healthy mind. Enjoy the events and concentrate on them and not the ex. Hope you have a wonderful weekend.
12 Jun 10 by member: The Next Number
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My ex was the same way. I really do understand feeling the way you do. When I said that we needed counseling or should think about divorcing his answer to me was, "Guess we are getting a divorce then!" He never even thought about change or trying to work things out and it hurt more than I can say back then. It took a long time to get over that hurt so my best advice is to give yourself that time. When a marriage dies it is like the death of a loved one in many ways. I am sorry for your pain and hope you find some coping mechanisms that work for you during the process. Emotional eating is understandable, and we all do it from time to time, however, as you are finding, it really does not soften the blow so I hope you will be able to find something else that does work for you...ok, I am rambling...{{{{{{{{{{{Hugs}}}}}}}}}}
12 Jun 10 by member: dawn0001
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13 Jun 10 by member: abbadabba
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Yes Abba I remember Poet. There have been several buddies who were here one day and gone the next ... I'm glad you are still here!!! I am the one who judges myself most harshly ... I'm glad my buddies help to balance that tendency. hang in there ... sounds like you have some good plans in place to take care of you!!
13 Jun 10 by member: madaboutmoose
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